Broke Abstinence

I cannot eat anything with sugar or white flour.  Yesterday I had pancakes with Lite Syrup. That was a big no-no because first of all I broke my abstinence, eating something that wasn't on my food plan and secondly the syrup was lite but still had some sugar.  Abstinence means so much to me.  It keeps me sane, meaning my personality stays on an even keel if I stay with God as my Guide and stick to my program.  I need to have God in my life and to listen to whatever He tells me because it's the only way to stay abstinent.  Ever since last year when I broke abstinence after almost one year, I have had such a hard time getting back on track.  I stay there for a while but fall off easily and sometimes for no reason.  At least that's what I think.  But down deep there must be a reason. I will write in my journal and try to find out what that reason is and correct it before it snowballs.  Thanks for letting me share this.  Happy Sunday!

New Month, New Year 2009!

Happy New Year! A new month, a new year to stick to the food plan and knock off all sweets. Today marks the 5th day of what I call abstinence, meaning sticking to my food plan and not eating any candy, pastry, extra sugar. It's a good start. Hoping to continue my efforts in the 8th week of the Bootcamp for the holidays even though the holidays are now past, I need to keep doing the exercises at least 3 times a week and walk every day if I can.

We had a lovely dinner today, pork and sauerkraut, mashed potatoes, broccoli. No dessert. After that food who would have room for dessert. Missed having our daughter home. She cooked the same stuff for her and her guy 50 miles south of here.

Cookie Monster is MIA

Christmas is over, I am not raiding the cookie jar any more. I turned over a new leaf. It was the step three in my OA book that gave me some new meaning to the abstinence I was on, fell off and am on again. If that makes sense to you, good cuz it makes sense to me. Let's move on from here.

I will be saying this prayer every day starting today:

Dear Lord,
I surrender my temptations to binge, overeat and misuse food today. I ask for and trust in your guidance in everything I do. I know what my eating guidelines should be, I ask for the willingness and ability to live within these guidelines each day. Bestow upon me the grace and power I need to stop indulging when I'm not even hungry.

And, I thank you Lord for all the blessings you have given me, by your Holy Spirit within me, I can resist the urge and temptation to overeat and to live by your will one day at a time. Amen.

In SP I suggested that they might think about selling rubber bracelets embossed with SP info so we can buy, wear and promote the cause. Let's see how many members respond. It might be worth something.

It's a beautiful sunshiny day today, not too cold at all. I am going to watch DOOL. Ta ta for now.